with a buzz in my ears

with this sight
buzzing sound in the ears
a silver tear and soot in the eyes
i don't wanna see anythin but blue sky above me
i don't wanna hear anythin but only this buzzing comforting sound
its feels like i'm dying
nothing i can do, not even crawling
but i can feel i'm breathing, i can feel it falling
if all the divine haven't inclosed to me
at least let me hear it, or just let me see it
and make things easier to me
i got enough, just enough...

dreams...

i think about my day tomorrow, today and yesterday...
when i just near to there, i'll be easier to be there...
and i'm tryin to find a way to get there....

Finally, the meeting point...

.....
hang on for the winter´s darkness, pull out heartstrings with enough available
until it shines upon me through branches
we hold on for a good day and we blow all time flows
giving life ignite a fire and flaming souls
no longer cold, giving life, reviving my soul, paint the world
......

i’m mumbling, i’m mumbling, i’m mumbling, i’m mumbling

i’m mumbling, i’m mumbling, i’m mumbling, i’m mumbling
i’m mumbling, i’m mumbling, i’m mumbling, i’m mumbling
i’m mumbling, i’m mumbling, i’m mumbling, i’m mumbling

hhuummmmfffhhhh

corner
light
sight
sound
talk
argue
laugh
mind
seduces
and string attached...

solutions?

what am i going to say when there's no words i can tell???

zaaaziiiizzuuuuu

personality and situation tended, that's how the attraction built, then leads to relationships

Tik Tok Tik Tok...

figure out....
how the situation related to strength and or emotion....

Exhibit Seven.......

i’m handing over everything that i've got
‘cause i wanna have a ......
don’t ever wanna have to go and give you up
stay up ‘till the morning
i want to make it worth the fight
what have we been doing for all this time?
if we’re gonna do it, come on do it right....

cup cup....

"cup cup" from canada....

fluff fluff fluff...

on that day he asked, "what are you doing here?"
then i closed the book and said, "seeing friends",
*(what? seeing friends? shit! here? i'm alone, where are they?
please don't ask, please don't ask)*
then i listened to him
as he takes on half the world
moving up and so alive
in him honey dripping
behave behave...
it's good, so good, all right
talking back to him
eating up the plum, just like honey
he's wonderful
he's beautiful
i wanted him, i do
i could love, all night with him
i'm in his arms, and he's kissing me
(oh shit, why he's looking me like that, he can read my mind?)
"thanks for the coffee"
"thanks for the time, wonderful"

*fffiiiuuuuuhhhh....deep exhale....

Built Slowly To The Last

won't last long
the panel of observers are waiting to be chosen
and even in the future
the sweet is never as sweet without the sour
the decision to face the last remaining fear of heights
to meet brilliant journey of self-awakening
happiness are about to live a real life
and how to let what i got in my mind out
remember what someone told me once
that every passing minute
is another chance to turn it all around


i open my eyes

it's retour a vega

its more than just ordinary day
its time for me to take a change
it feels like spread my wings and i’m fly away
i leave my drowing and make my own way
i go straight and never look back
it feels like i’m reaching the sky
i’m loosing my defends
this is the moment full of dream
this is my way back to the vega
i’m reaching my starlight
i’m starting to enjoy the beat
i can’t wait to hear another beat
only the beat, not the crowd

flabby...

anywhere is walking distance, but i've got the time
it doesn't matter whether i'll get where i’m going or not
i'll get there anyway


*if you look for the truth outside yourself, it gets farther and farther away, and if you understand it in this way, you merge with the way things are*

Pursuit of happiness...

emosi yang stabil itu tenang
tanpa beban pikiran itu damai
keep the mind filled with something that it should
kalau ada yang hanya menambah beban tapi means nothing
lebih baik dilepaskan
sendiri itu mungkin lebih baik
at least better than keeping the wrong person to stay
kebahagiaan itu pasti
pasti dirasa dan pasti terlihat
i'll end up with all i want in my hand
simple things, normal life, peace and happiness, my dreams, my ambitions
and surely, most of all.. hanin andiya hanifa
did i look happy for the certain moments?
but im happy now...

Fall... fall out....

looking around
white, white as a sheet
i've got to get out
it's scary
i miss my home, i miss my tree
now they carry me back up to the top
i've got this now
my legs are steady now
my angel warned me never to fall down

Min Käraste Hanin Andiya Hanifa

one of the most beautiful gifts that world gave me is you
we are most complex
to look after you, keep you near me
the happy memories of the past
the joyful moments of the present
the hope and promise of the future
beloved daughter, my only one gift, let it be, enthusiasm
about dream
about present
about tomorow
keep laughing, keep screaming, keep asking me what you want
dont be affraid to get your greatest accomplishment, pride and joy
you'll be happy...

meet me here....

you can ask questions about the truth
it feels like, "when i came here"?
a small row of footsteps
a unknown continent